The Journey...

My journey began as soon as I was diagnosed.  This is a journey that every cancer sufferer hopes ends with recovery.  It is a rocky and winding road and one that is full of self-discovery.  I am lucky enough to have some fantastic companions travelling with me; they have helped to show me the direction and keep my faith along the road I am travelling on.

I have learnt a lot about myself in the past few months; the first being that I am much tougher than I ever thought I was!!  You always imagine that if you were ever to be told that you have cancer that you would crumble and be a complete mess; and yes I have had many down days, but I immediately felt the need to stay positive and to fight this alien inside me.  Plus I had no choice; Alexa needs her Mummy!!

I always had a fear of being cut open so as soon as I heard that I would need to be cut open to remove the tumour I full of dread and fear, but as the time drew closer I was able to face up to these feelings and in the end I felt I coped quite well with both the operation and the pain afterwards!! I definitely have a higher pain threshold that I had ever thought I did!!  I also realised that I am very hard on myself!! I expect a lot from myself and am not very good at delegating anything as I always feel that I do it better myself (naturally!! LOL), so I am learning to chill out on myself and that sometimes it doesn't matter!!!

The main thing I have learnt is what is important in life.  The people around you are what's important; we would be nothing without them and so often in life we are too busy to acknowledge just how special our loved ones are. So do this today for me; tell your loved ones what they mean to you - give them a hug, do a good deed, phone someone you have lost touch with, reach out and make someone aware just how special they are to you.  Life is short and fragile, so do it today, in fact do it now!! Go on......

(ps To my loved ones, as you know I love you all and will be eternally grateful for your support, and for everyone else I will make sure you all know just how amazing these people are, keep your eyes peeled for special posts just for them xxxx)