I cant wait to....

... wake up and not have cancer as my first thought
... be able to dye my hair!
... get all dressed up and dance all night - preferably to some old school garage!
... feel like 'me' again
... have the energy to be a better Mummy
... be able to wash my hair and not see loads of it in the bath tub
... have my independence back
... treat my family and friends to say thank you for their amazing support
... have dinner date nights with my besties
... start yoga again
... put my earphones in and go for a long run
... move back to my flat with my girlie
... get back to work with my lovely colleagues and my gorgeous kiddies
... have enough hair to have my fringe cut in again
... loose some steroid weight!!
... not have to worry about making sure my Hickman line is not visible
... have my 'normal' life back
... drink a yummy cocktail
... put my new healthy lifestyle into practise
... for the doctors to tell me that I have the all clear
... have lots of discreet and meaningful tattoos
... not feel exhausted everyday
... be able to plan things in advance
... not need to find a parking space at the Royal Berks!
... have only the 'normal' stresses of life to worry about
... not be a worry to my family and friends
... grow my hair back really long
... have clear skin again
... not have the side affects of chemotherapy
... not have to remember to take my chemo tablets
... say thank you to the lovely chemo nurses for looking after me
... have a relaxing holiday in the sun somewhere
... have a party to celebrate the end of my treatment
... watch my beautiful little girl grow up
... experience my healthy and exciting future.

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