Ding Ding! Round 6

Firstly I must apologise for neglecting my blog recently.  I have had a real emotional rollercoaster these past few weeks.  I am finding that as I am nearing the end of my chemotherapy I am becoming increasing scared about 'going it alone'.  Although chemo is not a walk in the park at all, I find comfort knowing that I have these cancer fighting drugs inside me doing their job; I worry about what will happen when I suddenly have to fight the cancer returning by myself.  I know that I will be monitored closely for the next five years, but I anxiety of not knowing why I developed the cancer is making me feel very nervous.  I am planning on a total lifestyle and diet overhaul in the hope that I will have that on my side; but I find it all very overwhelming.  I am sure that these are all very normal feeling so I am not too worried, but I wanted you all to know why I have been away for a little while!!

So, on to my sixth round of chemo!  Last time my blood results were very borderline, it was only my white blood cell count that ensured that the chemo could go ahead; this time going into chemo I felt very run down and low so I knew that I would be in a similar situation, in fact I was certain that they would have to delay my treatment for a week.  But I stayed positive and Mum and I started the day with a yummy breakfast.  I have clearly spent a lot of time in the coffee shop at the Royal Berks and I had collected enough loyalty points for a free cup of coffee, so that was a good start to the day!

We went to see the oncologist at about 10am, and as usual had a long old wait to be seen!  Once we were almost an hour late I did wonder if they had forgotten me, but was assured I was next! I do wonder how they manage to run so late as I seem to be in and out in no time!  He was happy with my improved side effects, due to the slightly reduced dosage.  As I predicted my blood tests were borderline, but my white blood cells saved the day again so we were all good to go ahead with the treatment.

So it was off to the chemo ward to wait for the chemo to be released by the pharmacy.  Mum and I waited patiently with our trashy mags and M&S lunch!  The M&S is definitely the best thing to arrive in the Royal Berks!!  I was plugged in at about 1.30 and we filled our time with more trashy mags! I have bought books to read about how your diet and lifestyle can help to fight cancer, and I bring them with me each week with the intention of reading them, but I am still feeling overwhelmed by it all.  I am sure I will finally get my head around reading them! 

The time went by quite quickly thankfully and it was time to pick up by beautiful girl from nursery.  As I am sure you have already picked up on this is my favourite part of the whole day; however bad I feel after the treatment I am always determined to go into nursery and see her face when I walk in.  Its priceless and reminds me of what my fight is all about.  She is my rock and my life and the very best thing to ever happen to me.


Well what about this beautiful weather?!? Doesn't it make everything seem so much better? You can wake up with a smile on your face, it makes you want to get up out of bed and make the most of the day.  It has also had a very positive affect on my side effects; the warmth has helped to reduce the tingling but I must admit I find it hard not being able to have an ice lolly or a cold drink; gosh that's all I am craving!!


I hope that you are all well and wish you all a wonderful week.


Much love Cx